Sunday, October 29, 2006

bisita

1:30 p.m.
Mataas na ang sikat ng araw at ako ay tulog na tulog pa rin. Palibhasa madaling araw na naman ako umidlip kaya eto ako ngayon humihilik pa rin sa sofa ng sala. Nitong mga araw ay napagpasyahan kong wag matulog sa aking kwarto hanggang hindi pa ito nalilinisan. Sa ngayon ay nalinisan na ito at napakaganda nang muli pero nasanay na rin akong matulog sa sofa. Baka matagal pa bago ako matulog ulet sa sarili kong kama.

1:35 p.m.
Nagising ako sa lakas ng ingay na nanggagaling sa telebisyon. Nakaspeaker na naman sila at bka nanonood na naman ng nakakatakot na palabas. Napilitan akong gumising at dali-daling umakyat sa aking kwarto.

1: 37 p.m.
Pagka-akyat,tinignan ko kagad ang aking cp. "Nakatanggap ka na naman ng dosedosenang mensahe ube" sabi ng aking cp. =) Tinignan ko ito isa-isa at dali-dali ring binura ang mga kowts na walang kwenta. Nagulat ako. Nagtext si Ashley. (Si ashley ang naging matalik kong kaibigan sa tfvc sa loob ng isang mahabang taon.)

1:40 p.m.
"Punta tau sa school. UN day ngayon eh".. Aba galaan pero nanaig pa rin ang aking katamaran. "ayoko. kakatamad eh" sabat pikit ng mata... "punta ka na gusto kitang makita eh" wow, nakakatouch! di na ako na ako gaanong nag-isip at dali-daling natulog sa aking bagong sapin na kama.

2:30 p.m.
Ayaw nang matulog ng aking katawan. Tumingala na lang ako at nakipagtitigan sa aking kisame habang nag-iisip ng mga lumulutang kong mga pangarap sa buhay. Ang sakit na ng katawan ko, onti na lang magmumukha na rin itong kama.

2:35 p.m.
Pumunta ako sa kwarto ng nanay ko. Sinabi ko ang tungkol sa mensahe ni ash. Sabi niya pumunta daw ako at dalawin ko naman ang aking dating eskwelahan. Kaya ayun tinext ko si ashley. Sabi ko sunduin niya ako, oo naman xa!

4:15 p.m.
Napagpasyahan naming magkita ni ashley sa Dunkin Donut na di na pla nageexist ngayon!Bute nalang at tamang-tama lang ang pagdating namin sa may kanto. at aba, pareho pa kaming naka-green!

4:25 p.m.
"Para!" sabay hinto ng jeep.. "ang layo mo naman pumara" banat ni ash. Naku naman po, pitong hakbang na lang asa skul na kame! loka-loka tlga un! hahah. Dirediretso lang kame sa pagpasok sa skul sabay tawa na may malisya "hihihi bute di tau sinita" sabi ko. "xempre college na tau eh" pagmamalake naman ni ash.

4:30 p.m.
Diretso kame sa canteen at pinuntahan ang iba pa naming mga kaklase. "yikee.. uyy.. hihihi" yan ang bungad nila samin. Samahan mo pa yan ng mga nang-aasar, maaasim, at kinikilig na mukha ng mga walangya kong kaklase. Ang patay na para saking tukso kay ~~toot~~ ay nabuhay na namang mule na parang zombie na si Michael Jackson. Pagbigyan.. un nlang iniisip ko habang vinivideohan ako gamit ang pc ni ~~toot~~. Onti na lang may uupakan na ako.

4:45 p.m.
Lumabas kame para manood ng palabas. Mga pamilyar na mukha sa entablado. "sila na nman.. lage na lang sila. nakakasawa na" ang tumatakbo sa isip ko nang biglang bumanat si ashley ng "uyy ung ex ni jireh oh!!" "bwahahaha" sabay dukot ng upaan at upo sa gilid.

6:00 p.m.
tapos na ang palabas. Ngayon market2 naman! Kain sa mcdo. kwentuhan. Laro sa timezone. wow galeng pla ashley mag drums. sabi niya dahil daw un sa araw2 niyang pagpunta ng mall! hahah loka2. kwentuhan. libot mall. bili sa supermarket. kain. kwentuhan. uwe.

8:00 p.m.
naunahan pa ako ng magulang ko sa pag-uwe. Sinundulo nila ang aking malditang kapatid. =) Kain ule ako hapunan sabay bukas ng ym.

2:30 a.m.
ayan oras na ng tulog ko pero teka kain muna ako. hahaha

/"Life is not a waste. The only time it is waste is when we think we are alone" -Five People You Meet in Heaven/

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Thursday, October 26, 2006

buhay sembreak

sembreak.

walang magawa. chat lang buong hapon gabe at madaling araw...

punta skul. kuha grades. smile. naka 2.5 sa math11

biglang lungkot. di natuwa parents. kelangan gwa 2.0 kundi.. la na scholarship

tambay kain sa mini stop. tambay ule. libot skul. hintay sundo

dating sundo. upo sa likod tulala tingin sa labas. nananaginip ng.. mulat ang mata

text. check balance P180. sayang load. di na text

dating bahay. bihis bukas tv.. agaw sakin remote.. bukas pc. bukas ym

chat. online.. cien timoy iko galen chellie lovely. madaleng araw la na tao patay pc bukas tv....... nood cartoons.. spongebob catdog..

patay ilaw. patay tv. sindi ilaw...kain kahit na ano.. sipilyo patay ilaw tulog...

*araw na araw na gawain. kinababagutan. pero wala magawa. boring. gala naman tau o kaya movie marathon sa inyo?? :bop:*

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Friday, October 06, 2006

Introducing the APC

"First year students are not allowed to join fraternities or sorrority or else students will immediately be suspended"

i do not remember the exact wordings but i think i still got the essence of it. The reminder or the warning, to be more appropriate, is located below the admission letter to all freshies who passed the entrance exam. This is one of the meduim of the university to scare students away from frats/soro.

The university even uses fbc or the freshmen block coordinator (?) to be the kuya-kuyahan or the ate-atehan of the naive young freshies. Most of them are against the idea of freshies joining frats and sorro and even appeal to the pity of the soft-hearted freshies. "wag kayong sumali ha (sa f/s), wag nyong paiyakin mga fbc nyo.." I do not really get the point of it. I do not really think that they will be affected if others will join the f/s during their first term. Will they gain or lose anything? i don't think so... There are many controversial questions that runs in my mind that i guess can only be answer if I become a sophomore myself or even be an fbc! But i will make sure that the latter choice will be my last resort.

I want to clarify, i am not against the fbc. Some things are meant not be reasoned out. Too complex ideas are to be explained and dim-witted people will not understand. I am here to express my notion and that's it.

To tell the truth, i have been oriented by a fraternity. They speak well. They act well. The feeling of it is a combination of random emotions: scared, excited, happy.. More of a positive. I even got to the point of almost giving in but conscience eats me whole. Aggravate to that the eavesdroppers who secretly gesture to you in contradiction with the situation. As if we are close. As if she is helping. Damn. Damn. Tae. Pakilamera!

As the first semester ends, the truth unveils to me gradually. Instances such as personal experiences act as the evidences that prove to me that not all rules are made to be followed. Everyone is a rational being. We are born with free will and it is up to us if will make use of it in a senseful way or not.

As time goes by, these issues are left only as a memory that should not be regretted. I have met true friends that solved our own illusions and fantasies. Introducing the APC (Alphi Phi C.....). A phony and yet genuine fraternity (?) that focuses on friendship, accountability, equality, peace, and HUMOR. Each toxic day becomes ecstatic. It is the ultimate equalizer any yupee student craves for!! ** the meaning of C in the APC are only limited to its members** What are you waiting for?

/The consequences of our actions should always be the basis of our reactions. Utilitarianism can be of great value. The world is an imperfect place and only happiness can balance it!!! /

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Wednesday, September 27, 2006

i am physically inadequate..

it's been a long time since i last updated. no new entries, no more new taggiess for me. It's been a hell month! we have been doing so much requirements, tests, and other social problems. well enough of that, to start it of..

"magexercise tayo tuwing umaga, tuwing umaga, tuwing umaga!"

silly song isn't it? damn, it was only now that i got the point and essence of it. FPF (fundamental physical fitness)- my subject in P.E.. The fitness itself makes me even more not adequate and rightful enough to pass this subject! i do not exercise-- im a cough potato, i love to sleep, i love to sit, i love to daydream** oh yeah, don't you think the best things are really free??**,i love to just stare and think about nothing. The normal activities of idle people who you get to see everywhere and who love to blabber about their lives for the sake of doing something. Darn it, and now, I'm less proud to be one after this dilemma!

Finals for this subject is a fun run a.k.a. DEATH MARCH. Two laps around the humongous oval of up diliman... exciting ei? i don't think so!! .. My dentists, making me feel ok, said that i can do it within the alloted time, which is 40 mins. They say it's easy... oh yeah, EASY!! easy for them to say. wahuhuhu considering the energy i take in (q= 15) and the energy i get to consume (w=50), am i really ready for this? (u=-35) :c

I have been practicing for some time now. i have been doing so much effort taking into account the long distance of diliman from taguig! but it seems like it was not enough. unfortunately, i can only finish one lap with a sweaty face, aching legs, shaken brain, teary eyes, and the feeling of vomiting. I am not being o.a... i am helpless. Mind over matter won't work anymore. a miracle is what i need!

/bili na kaya ako ng ticket para may incentive at makapasa naman ako ng p.e.?... hay gastos!/

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Monday, September 18, 2006

just updating.. *smug*

my teeth hurt!! huhu dentist just adjusted my braces.. 1 more month of rubber in my mouth! damn those dentist (argumentum ad hominem) hahah philosophy makes my life more meaningful and at the same time miserable!! :P

my food intake is greatly affected . This morning, i had noodles and alaxan for breakfast. i can't eat anything except for soft food.. and drugs hahah. Good thing, we didn't have our comm1 class today. I got to sleep longer *yipee* but my saliva kept on drooling off my mouth *eww*.

math was ok but as usual lessons were tackled too fast. Ma'am ilao of nat sci1 class got mad.. someone (or some people) were chatting while she was talking. i thought professors don't mind those things.. but i was wrong.. hahah i guess they still seem to care (that was new!)

dad was so sweet today. He fetch me from school.. wee i got to save P48!! hahaha more money for playing basketball :P

/can't wait till thurs.. sana matuloy :D/

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Thursday, September 07, 2006

tomorrow'S thE daY

Tomorrow's the deadline for dropping.. still, i don't know if i have to drop any of my subjects. I'm hoping that i pass all of them with an average of 2.0 and up!! hahaha 'cause it is hurting if i don't. it cuts through my heart!! it rips my soul.. i shatters the every piece of the reason behind my existence. i will not take it lightly..

I did my best, well almost. i tried to get high grades but the UP world is not that easy. By the time you thought you have already adjusted, another stage of life comes in with built in additional terror teachers, harder lessons, huge pile of projects and lesser social life. First semester hasn't ended yet... but it feels like we've been studying for a whole year already. We're almost finish on our books/modules. Sometimes, it gets to the point that you just had enough.

My brain is already full but i know it never be... Knowledge is something that is infinite. Always less but never much. It is selfish, arrogant and greedy. The brain absorbs every nutrients it can get to the point of being an ugly and wrinkled entity. "what is the use of beauty when the brain is empty"---> that's her saying and it suits her well.

/cleaning faura=serving the country...police dispersed(they thought we're rallying)=how o.a./

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Thursday, August 31, 2006

last entry for my journal hw

There are many changes in my life when I entered college. I was open to new ideas and became more independent in every aspects of my life.

I started liking coffee. It keeps me on the go especially when I have morning classes and I stayed up late the night before. I also love the aroma of it. It relaxes me and awakens me until lunch time.

Cramming to the next level is another thing. I am used of this word and I was doing it for the past years. I was able to live with it and still be fine for the rest of the day. But cramming, the college way, is one hell different. One instance is when I had my Social Science departmental examination. I stayed up until five in the morning just to finish all the readings. Good thing, the test was scheduled in the afternoon and I still had time to rest.

Malling is not that fun especially when you a UPM student. Almost everyday, I get to pass by Robinsons and as days go by, it became a normal place. No more excitement can be felt. It is merely like entering a comfort room because it is a necessity.

Social life is not that essential. . I have no time to see my old friends and texting is my only means to get connected with them. But most of the time, I am too busy to do that. Still, it is the thought that counts. They will never be forgotten.

College life is like entering another world where everything has to be accepted wholeheartedly. We cannot change it so we just have to stay with the flow and adjust ourselves to this new surrounding to survive.

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